She was not able to finally leave this world. There is maybe something more she needs to do with her destiny. Within all the responsibilities and love from those around her, the only thing she can think of is the life she adored. How can she explain the feeling of being happy?
In her entire existence, the fairy had never experienced such a feeling of being constantly happy, even in the bad moments. It is because the fairy has an empty chest, a pain inside her, that she started to feel when she was so young, that she thought that this sensation belonged to her. But she recently discovered that this was not the truth.
On a spring night, she looked at her face, on the sunflower’s face, and everything made sense. Together with the castle, the lakes and all that makes that city the most pleasant place on earth, the smile of the sunflower was the meaning of life. It’s hard to defend herself and say how special this love is, since the sunflower also covers patterns of the fairy.
But that is not the reason she fell for the sunflower. The fairy never met a woman like her, with such a deep connection and that much quality. The sunflower is sweet, kind, honest, gentle, humble (most of the time) and so gorgeous that the whole Universe could stop just to contemplate her face.
And then, there is also the fact that she has an enormous light and shares that with others. She is the one that picks up berries from trees and enjoys the taste of everything she eats and drinks. She is the one that speaks about nature and health with passion and tries to find the good things in every situation.
How could the fairy not fall in love when she founded the love of her life? It seems definitely exaggerated to assert this so intensely, but if anyone in the fairy’s life met the sunflower, he or she would immediately comprehend what made her fall so deeply. The sunflower is the woman that the fairy dreamed as a silly young girl. There, in her teenage years, she thought that she would be happy with a person exactly like her.
It is funny to the fairy to think that this fanfictioned woman, this hallucination from her younger years, actually exists and is so untouchable that now she feels only pain and sadness. Because even if there wasn’t an entire ocean dividing them, she couldn’t have her. She would never be with her. And this impossibility would only grow in each walk, dinner and coffee they could ever share.
Nonetheless, the fairy can say to the world that she found the woman of her dreams, the one that made her feel good and happy, that made the emptiness in her chest finally disappear. And the fairy shouldn’t be that sad or desperate, because life gave her this huge opportunity to meet someone like the sunflower. And also she has to understand that now they can’t be even friends - since the fairy ruined that - so, she has to swallow her tears and follow her path.
But nobody will be like her. Never. Nobody is like the sunflower and that is ok too. Every song has a rhythm, a special dynamic that brings new feelings and experiences to the fairy. So now she must be reborn and find reasons to keep going. And even more importantly, she can’t be with the sunflower, but she can return to her favorite land, even if it’s for a brief encounter and it takes ages for that to happen. It doesn’t matter.
Because in this entire fanfiction that happened in her life, there is a love that is not impossible: the love for a place. A place that cured her, that made her believe in life and love again. And that is so special that she can survive only by knowing that the city is there, within all its qualities, and with the fact she was there too one day. While she inhabits this planet, she can fight to see that place again. And when she comes back, she can redo all that path, the one she called “Sonnenblumenweg“. Even if she does this “weg” alone, the sunflower will be there with her, because she will be in her heart forever.
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