The unexplainable feeling

She writes to keep her words safe somewhere, to warm her body and soul and with the hope that someday the girl she loves will find her missives and understand everything she was going through. But how could she start to describe the importance of what she is feeling right now? Maybe she could begin talking about her. She could start by remembering the sound of her name, but not that name that everybody calls her. She has this beautiful middle name that sounds like it came from a medieval princess warrior, like she was just inside of a beautiful fantasy tale.

Her looks match with her name and with her red hair that bounces when the wind comes. To look at her is like reading a refined ancient poem or hearing a very melodic song. How can a person mix an amount of sweetness that is combined with all that strength? The way she moves and looks can drown a person into madness and calmness, because she has a mesmerizing behavior, which can be a blend of coolness and seriousness.

And then, over there, there is the fairy, looking at her like she could not waste any minute staring at another thing, because she could lose something of her. Every gesture that she does is like a balm or like smelling a gorgeous flower on a spring day. But she does not put her on a pedestal. Not anymore at least. She sees her flaws too, but still loves her anyway. However, how could someone write about love and confidences talking about flaws, right? No, here in this messy journal, she will talk about all the things that made her fall for this incredible girl that she met on a cloudy day in may.

Sometimes she closes her eyes and tries to remember the feeling of that first night when they had dinner. That amount of joy seems so unreachable now, but at the same time she is happy that she had the possibility to feel that way at some point of her life. It is not always that people can have such an intense and great moment. And all the things that happened that day come to her mind every once in a while. The way that she talked about herself and that she listened was very different from everything she knew before.

The way she cared about her was also different. And that was not because the fairy was important to the sunflower or anything, but because she cares for people in a very deep way. She is profound and is such a complex character that maybe is a bit confunsing to know how the sunflower feels about her. But it does not really matter, right? Her days together are almost over and she will probably forget about the fairy and never talk to her again. Alles ist verdammt, oder? This relationship is not possible, it will never happen. And even though she will only keep in her memory these amazing months that she had by her side, she will be grateful. It seems silly that brief friendly encounters could have changed someone's life. 

But that is the case. Nothing is the same after her. But why? Because she showed to her that even with the bad things that are in the Universe you can find good things and experiences inside of all that. Because her laugh is contagible and the way she looks at people makes more sense than anything that inhabits the Planet. So she finishes her sentences right now, at least for today. But she will keep in mind that she will carry in her heart the days she got to have with her, with her smile, beautifulness and kind words. And that, folks, is all she needs for now.